Hey there!
My name is J'Wana and I made this blog to pretty much be able to vent about my everyday struggles as a single mom, full time student and having a full time job. All while trying to focus on my health which is not where it needs to be. At 23 years old, I am over 200 lbs and pre-diabetic. I don't want that full blown diabetic diagnosis if I can do something about it.... and I know I can.
The past 9 months or so have been really tough for me. I moved back home to the DC area with my daughter, started working and starting the enrollment process for college. Within 6 weeks of me starting my job, my mother got laid off from her job. I added more hours to even everything out and keep us afloat, while still having every intention on starting school in Spring 2014. I ended up working 50+ hours a week, and I was exhausted. Then before I knew it, it was January and time to start my classes. Because of all the stress and lack of sleep I have been getting, I have been slacking in all areas of my life. I am getting depressed, I am skipping class, even calling out of work some days just to try to get some rest. I find myself losing patience with my 3 year old daughter due to me being depressed and tired.
One thing that I do know is that healthy eating habits and exercise can help with energy and depression. So why has it been so hard to just start down this road? I've done this many times before. I'd say I am going to start exercising and change up my eating habits and I do pretty good for a while and then I get stressed out and BAM! One not-so-healthy meal turns into a week, which turns into 3 months. And I am back at square one. I find myself wondering how many times I will go in this constant circle and then I remember, I will do it as long as I allow myself to. I have to find the motivation, determination, and the balance to succeed in all this things I have going on.
Its not going to be easy at all, Ill probably slip up a few times, but its not how many times you fall that matters. Its how many times you get back up. And as long as I pick myself up more than I fall, there is no way I can fail!
So here's to finding the balance.
Mommy. Student. Massage Therapist. Healthy. Fit. ME
J'Wana
